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Right now I should be excited and happy, but I'm not for some reason. I am leaving for Fort Lauderdale tomorrow, but I am still not happy. I am actually quite depressed. I think a lot of it has to do with school. I have never struggled so much as I have with classes than I have this semester. Right now I just hope I pass Econ and Marketing. It is not because I have blown the classes off either. I have done all the reading, studied my ass off, and I still can't do well. That along with the whole female situation. I find myself asking a lot of questions that I can't seem to answer. The one that bothers me the most is not being able to answer where I see myself in 5 years. Another thing is the whole thing with girls, I guess I am doing something wrong somewhere, but I dont know what. maybe I really am too nice. But at the same time everyone tells me not to try and be different. So I am lost. After tonight I think I can mark up #5. I guess basically what I am saying is that right now in my life I am at a crossroad. Not knowing what direction to take. I am about to make Geoff proud when I quote Alkaline Trio in 97, "I don't deserve this."