Happy New Year?
Its funny how punctuation can change everything...
One thing at the end can change the mean of everything that happened before.
Deanna and I finally spoke. Took forever and me making an ass of myself one too many times. Am I over her...? probably not. I don't think I ever will be. Maybe I am just convinced that a first love will occupy the heart forever. I learned a lot from my time with her. Gah... I was an ass. All I can do is learn from my mistakes.
I don't really know what to think anymore. My dad basically backed out of supporting me. He wasn't really doing a great job before and know he has lost my respect. Thank the lord for strong mothers... my step dad isn't that bad either =P....
As far as relationships go I don't think I want one. Don't get me wrong I am one who loves companionship but I obviously haven't handled it well in the past.
There is the dream and it sucks knowing I may never grab hold of it.
One thing at the end can change the mean of everything that happened before.
Deanna and I finally spoke. Took forever and me making an ass of myself one too many times. Am I over her...? probably not. I don't think I ever will be. Maybe I am just convinced that a first love will occupy the heart forever. I learned a lot from my time with her. Gah... I was an ass. All I can do is learn from my mistakes.
I don't really know what to think anymore. My dad basically backed out of supporting me. He wasn't really doing a great job before and know he has lost my respect. Thank the lord for strong mothers... my step dad isn't that bad either =P....
As far as relationships go I don't think I want one. Don't get me wrong I am one who loves companionship but I obviously haven't handled it well in the past.
There is the dream and it sucks knowing I may never grab hold of it.