why
why does the fact she wont talk to me bother me so much.... its really hard for me not to say anything... im trying.
I am at the point where i am balancing the depression and the anger. I just hate this. This is not what I wanted. Deep down I believe this isn't what she wanted either.
I guess writing it here gives me some hope. I get it off my chest. I just wish i could hear something. Sometimes I just wanna drive down there and be like hey now you have to deal with me. I guess I never really liked being ignored. Like I don't wanna be stalkerish... I don't think I am. I just... I dunno. This just sucks.
Ya know.. I honestly thought she would have wished me a happy birthday. It would have meant a lot.