Grad Concerns Continued
I have this desperate desire to fulfill people's expectations of me. For example, Professor B told me yesterday that he and Professor L thought very highly of me - that when Professor B told Professor L that I was planning on becoming a high school teacher they both said, "What's up with that?" as if I could do something better.
(and after the initial shock regarding their perception of my academic abilities dissipated I thought -- oo, you guys talk about me outside of class! *shy/pleased little grin*)
I'm afraid that if I go into library science or something instead of straightforward English degree, I will somehow be letting down their expectations or somehow not fulfilling my full academic potential.
I'm afraid that this mindset will unduly influence my decision one way or another, and yet --
I don't know.
(and after the initial shock regarding their perception of my academic abilities dissipated I thought -- oo, you guys talk about me outside of class! *shy/pleased little grin*)
I'm afraid that if I go into library science or something instead of straightforward English degree, I will somehow be letting down their expectations or somehow not fulfilling my full academic potential.
I'm afraid that this mindset will unduly influence my decision one way or another, and yet --
I don't know.