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I've been floating and, embarssingly enough, willfully unemployed for the last month or so. I had saved up and I'm still making rent but nonetheless it felt like a funk. The I-don't-know-who-I-am-or-where-I'm-going-and-who-am-I-kidding-anyway kind of funk.
I've oscillated all over the place on a variety of issues.
1) Should I be writing?
2) Should I focus on the immediate goal of full time employment - no matter the field - and finding a long term residence to call my own?
3) Should I get a part time whatever job and continue to help out familial situations like I have for the past twelve months?
4) Should I get a part time whatever job and start studying again in the other half of my time?
5) Should I start studying full time and fast track that real qualification for a better paying job?
I've just realized that growing up and getting over yourself is only hard because of the sheer amount of choices you have. The knowledge that taking a wrong step could set you back thousands of dollars and fuck up your life for years to come. Many times I've decided to not make a real choice. I've taken whatever job I can, usually low paying, and told myself I'd mull over the real, tough decisions. But I never do. I fill up my time and have no time to think.
Well, now I've only had time to think. I'm a graduate and I was fairly smart while studying. I got all my assignments in on time, I have no excuse to be such a cowardly jackass.
Thus, on top of applying for a couple of whatever jobs (in bookshops since I have experience there), I have applied for a fulltime entry level position at a magazine. I actually took a long time to write my cover letter and career goals on my resume (which I never do). Sure, it scared me a bit but I'm being realistic now and only applying for publishing houses and magazines at entry level. Then we'll see if I like it and if I want to work my way up - no point setting my sights higher than what's realistic.
I also downloaded about a thousand course summaries in regards to becoming a Librarian. I expected to just peruse out of interest but I made a firm decision to appy to Charles Sturt who have the best Masters degree according to my research. Even better, it's Part Time and by correspondence so I could do it on my own schedule and work full time at the same time. I'll need that if I plan to pay those scary fees.
I even started studying again for my Driver's license that I've always gone halfway on and then dropped because public transport is easier in my area.
I seem to get a rush of adulthood today. I hope it lasts because I feel focused and better about myself than I have in a long time. I seem to be growing out of my dreams and settling into hopes to be succesful in a realistic way. It's sad on one hand but then my dreams have often left me crippled with self criticism. Dreams can only take you so far, you have to have the drive and the god damn talent to get success and I question myself on the latter two.
I've got plenty of people riding me to decide what to do with my life - that's not different for anyone - but I think today was the day I started riding myself. I am excited by the idea of studying again and I'm also thankful for that since after I completed honours I thought I'd never want to study again. I'm glad this will give me a technical qualification on top of a degree that is considered fluff by most employers. Sure, it's what I wanted to do no matter my UAI and it was my goal at the time but it doesn't mean much on the market.
I'm not thinking beyond completing my Masters in Applied Science (Library and Information Management). There were two other courses I so wanted to do. I'm still interested in the professional editing course at Macleay and I also liked the sound of the Oten course on Legal Administration. I loved Legal Studies - aced it in my HSC - but never wanted to be a lawyer so that might be interesting on a level. I ended up choosing the Librarian course because there are so many different jobs I could get with that degree, the course includes on-the-job training and is very hands on. On completion of it I get to apply to ALIA, and thus get access to their constantly updated database of jobs in libraries across Australia. Nothing is guaranteed but the rate of getting a job out of the Charles Sturt course is 85% and that's gobsmacking in comparison to the rate of getting an editing job out of Macleay (obviously a much more competitive field, with much less assistance organization wise).
I feel all adult making a reasoned decision, rather than going on impulse for a dream that moves further away no matter how many steps I take. I'm content with the decision even if part of me still hopes to do the Macleay course someday. I'd rather do it while feeling settled enough on a real career path.
I feel like I can answer a lot of my questions:
1) Should I be writing? It should not be my priority at the moment, though it's still a good idea to always practice. I need to get my life in order before I worry about this.
2) A new residence is still a long term goal for me since I feel in the current market, I have to be earning way more than I have before in order to afford a place on my own. Sydney retail prices are just crazy, I think we're in the top two most expensive cities in the world. More study is required to get a well paying job.
3) Hell no.
4) This I feel is the best option. Though I think I can work full if not close to full time hours while doing Charles Sturt's course. Depends how I handled the workload.
5) No. I still want to pay my own way and I don't want to be unemployed like I was for a long stretch of university. It sucked.
Read A Drink Before The War. Still loving Dennis Lehane and still finding it WEIRD since I don't normally like crime. I think Patrick's character has a lot of appeal. Just bought a whole pack of his books that should be arriving any day now. Yay!
Oh and Dexter season two arrived finally. YAY! Good news all around my friends. The forensic pack was kind of wanky but I couldn't resist. Now I have crime tape and a toe tag among other things and what am I meant to do with them? *mischievous smile* Okay, well I kinda, sorta, tied the toe tag on my nieces foot, freaking out her mother, but it was funny at the time. :p
I've oscillated all over the place on a variety of issues.
1) Should I be writing?
2) Should I focus on the immediate goal of full time employment - no matter the field - and finding a long term residence to call my own?
3) Should I get a part time whatever job and continue to help out familial situations like I have for the past twelve months?
4) Should I get a part time whatever job and start studying again in the other half of my time?
5) Should I start studying full time and fast track that real qualification for a better paying job?
I've just realized that growing up and getting over yourself is only hard because of the sheer amount of choices you have. The knowledge that taking a wrong step could set you back thousands of dollars and fuck up your life for years to come. Many times I've decided to not make a real choice. I've taken whatever job I can, usually low paying, and told myself I'd mull over the real, tough decisions. But I never do. I fill up my time and have no time to think.
Well, now I've only had time to think. I'm a graduate and I was fairly smart while studying. I got all my assignments in on time, I have no excuse to be such a cowardly jackass.
Thus, on top of applying for a couple of whatever jobs (in bookshops since I have experience there), I have applied for a fulltime entry level position at a magazine. I actually took a long time to write my cover letter and career goals on my resume (which I never do). Sure, it scared me a bit but I'm being realistic now and only applying for publishing houses and magazines at entry level. Then we'll see if I like it and if I want to work my way up - no point setting my sights higher than what's realistic.
I also downloaded about a thousand course summaries in regards to becoming a Librarian. I expected to just peruse out of interest but I made a firm decision to appy to Charles Sturt who have the best Masters degree according to my research. Even better, it's Part Time and by correspondence so I could do it on my own schedule and work full time at the same time. I'll need that if I plan to pay those scary fees.
I even started studying again for my Driver's license that I've always gone halfway on and then dropped because public transport is easier in my area.
I seem to get a rush of adulthood today. I hope it lasts because I feel focused and better about myself than I have in a long time. I seem to be growing out of my dreams and settling into hopes to be succesful in a realistic way. It's sad on one hand but then my dreams have often left me crippled with self criticism. Dreams can only take you so far, you have to have the drive and the god damn talent to get success and I question myself on the latter two.
I've got plenty of people riding me to decide what to do with my life - that's not different for anyone - but I think today was the day I started riding myself. I am excited by the idea of studying again and I'm also thankful for that since after I completed honours I thought I'd never want to study again. I'm glad this will give me a technical qualification on top of a degree that is considered fluff by most employers. Sure, it's what I wanted to do no matter my UAI and it was my goal at the time but it doesn't mean much on the market.
I'm not thinking beyond completing my Masters in Applied Science (Library and Information Management). There were two other courses I so wanted to do. I'm still interested in the professional editing course at Macleay and I also liked the sound of the Oten course on Legal Administration. I loved Legal Studies - aced it in my HSC - but never wanted to be a lawyer so that might be interesting on a level. I ended up choosing the Librarian course because there are so many different jobs I could get with that degree, the course includes on-the-job training and is very hands on. On completion of it I get to apply to ALIA, and thus get access to their constantly updated database of jobs in libraries across Australia. Nothing is guaranteed but the rate of getting a job out of the Charles Sturt course is 85% and that's gobsmacking in comparison to the rate of getting an editing job out of Macleay (obviously a much more competitive field, with much less assistance organization wise).
I feel all adult making a reasoned decision, rather than going on impulse for a dream that moves further away no matter how many steps I take. I'm content with the decision even if part of me still hopes to do the Macleay course someday. I'd rather do it while feeling settled enough on a real career path.
I feel like I can answer a lot of my questions:
1) Should I be writing? It should not be my priority at the moment, though it's still a good idea to always practice. I need to get my life in order before I worry about this.
2) A new residence is still a long term goal for me since I feel in the current market, I have to be earning way more than I have before in order to afford a place on my own. Sydney retail prices are just crazy, I think we're in the top two most expensive cities in the world. More study is required to get a well paying job.
3) Hell no.
4) This I feel is the best option. Though I think I can work full if not close to full time hours while doing Charles Sturt's course. Depends how I handled the workload.
5) No. I still want to pay my own way and I don't want to be unemployed like I was for a long stretch of university. It sucked.
Read A Drink Before The War. Still loving Dennis Lehane and still finding it WEIRD since I don't normally like crime. I think Patrick's character has a lot of appeal. Just bought a whole pack of his books that should be arriving any day now. Yay!
Oh and Dexter season two arrived finally. YAY! Good news all around my friends. The forensic pack was kind of wanky but I couldn't resist. Now I have crime tape and a toe tag among other things and what am I meant to do with them? *mischievous smile* Okay, well I kinda, sorta, tied the toe tag on my nieces foot, freaking out her mother, but it was funny at the time. :p