tendays later
it's been ten days since i've written. I've been hitting the weights harder and am starting to feel the change. But I also feel so wiped out during the day and start to feel my energy later at night. I need to figure out a way to get that energy earlier.
I've been fighting some scalp issues, i think maybe its eczema but it's a real pain in the ass and kind of hurts. I have surgery on tuesday for my left knee. Wish all these issues would resolve. And then I feel the pangs of debt, tattoo, living at home.
It's like so many shackles on me, but I drudge on. It's all i've ever done, drudging. I need to learn to break the shackles, and release these weights, let my wings unfold. I'm building a rifle, but it costs a lot and probably isnt the best time, but oh well. It's what I want to do right now. I need to clean up tomorrow, do another big clean session. hangout with mikey-it's been forever.
went to alaska for fire training, flying commercially sucks, it's uncomfortable and boring. bad combination right? online dating has been so so. I guess there's part of me that is over it, and wants to just focus on me and my direction of uncertainty. Maybe I'm in a lul, post honeymoon breakup pain. The plateau of bottom. I need some endorphins.
life is strange, it's been quite a shitty few years for me, it has really taken it's toll, but I drudge on. I hope things improve, I hope I become secure, stable, happy, and then find my compliment. up and atom, upward onward...
I'm glad to be off the next few days from work, not really having a weekend last week I think took it's toll. a break will be nice, I can't wait to get paid. I think I should go to the beach this weekend.
I've been fighting some scalp issues, i think maybe its eczema but it's a real pain in the ass and kind of hurts. I have surgery on tuesday for my left knee. Wish all these issues would resolve. And then I feel the pangs of debt, tattoo, living at home.
It's like so many shackles on me, but I drudge on. It's all i've ever done, drudging. I need to learn to break the shackles, and release these weights, let my wings unfold. I'm building a rifle, but it costs a lot and probably isnt the best time, but oh well. It's what I want to do right now. I need to clean up tomorrow, do another big clean session. hangout with mikey-it's been forever.
went to alaska for fire training, flying commercially sucks, it's uncomfortable and boring. bad combination right? online dating has been so so. I guess there's part of me that is over it, and wants to just focus on me and my direction of uncertainty. Maybe I'm in a lul, post honeymoon breakup pain. The plateau of bottom. I need some endorphins.
life is strange, it's been quite a shitty few years for me, it has really taken it's toll, but I drudge on. I hope things improve, I hope I become secure, stable, happy, and then find my compliment. up and atom, upward onward...
I'm glad to be off the next few days from work, not really having a weekend last week I think took it's toll. a break will be nice, I can't wait to get paid. I think I should go to the beach this weekend.