0187. Well, this time I'm not gonna watch myself die.
Everything has been messed up. It's going so fast.. that I can't even recall what's going on. What I'm losing, What I've lost, What I'm gaining, and What I've gained.
I've lost a heavily amount of my so called friends. I could careless though, except for some. I use to be really tight with a lot of people, then suddenly, it all stopped. I have no clue why, but in some cases it was for the best. I think I like being friends with guys more than I do girls. All my friends that are girls cause to much drama. Plus, there's backstabbing, and lies.
.. -sigh
As far as love goes. I could careless about that too. I don't wanna date anyone, but at the same time I do. I guess whatever happens, happens. Actually, I've broke up with the one person I love more than anything, My bestfriend. I wish I'd never let him go those times, because tonight when I looked in his eyes, I realized what I lost..
School. BLEH. My mom went to the open house thing. NGKG. I don't try, I could do anything I wanted because I'm very smart, and I just don't care when it comes to school. That's what they told my mom. I know I'm smart, I know I don't try, I know I don't care at this moment. Right now, I could careless about a lot of things. Hopefully next year will be diffrent. :]
Eh, Youth was great. I loved it. Jake is happy, I'm happy for him. I love that kid to death.
I'm tired, and sleepy. I wanna go to sleep, but I can't. Jake left me a voicemail, I couldn't answer it, cause mom won't let me answer calls past ten.
LAME.
I've lost a heavily amount of my so called friends. I could careless though, except for some. I use to be really tight with a lot of people, then suddenly, it all stopped. I have no clue why, but in some cases it was for the best. I think I like being friends with guys more than I do girls. All my friends that are girls cause to much drama. Plus, there's backstabbing, and lies.
.. -sigh
As far as love goes. I could careless about that too. I don't wanna date anyone, but at the same time I do. I guess whatever happens, happens. Actually, I've broke up with the one person I love more than anything, My bestfriend. I wish I'd never let him go those times, because tonight when I looked in his eyes, I realized what I lost..
School. BLEH. My mom went to the open house thing. NGKG. I don't try, I could do anything I wanted because I'm very smart, and I just don't care when it comes to school. That's what they told my mom. I know I'm smart, I know I don't try, I know I don't care at this moment. Right now, I could careless about a lot of things. Hopefully next year will be diffrent. :]
Eh, Youth was great. I loved it. Jake is happy, I'm happy for him. I love that kid to death.
I'm tired, and sleepy. I wanna go to sleep, but I can't. Jake left me a voicemail, I couldn't answer it, cause mom won't let me answer calls past ten.
LAME.