It's been six years of strategic avoidance and social discomfort.
It's been eventful & confusing & hysterical & beautiful & fun & hilarious & funny & crazy & delightful & sad & over-crowded & lonely and I've loved every minute of it.
It's funny how you don't realize how much you care/ depend on/ need/ want someone or something until it's gone. But hey; at least in the end it does open up your eyes and you realize what an idiot you've been. Until you start re-analysing everything and then it all becomes one jumble of nothing and you just want to forget about everything but you can't and it comes back even harder when you try to not think about it. So I may not be making sense to you but it makes sense to me and I think the way things end up working out always sucks..but only for a little while, then things brighten up or at least the sun starts to make its way out from behind that dark cloud and you finally decide to open your eyes and feel the warmth come back to you.
Yeah; something like that.
P.s - Being a counsellor has been so much fun and I've met and made so many crazy cool cats but it's actually really/extremely sad knowing that I'm probably never going to see some of them again, and if I will it won't be until next summer if they or I do decide to go back. Friggin love them all!
P.p.s - I can't wait till I'm off to Simone's cottage on Friday. It's going to be a blast times a billion so I'll see all you hot-teas when I return. Loves.
It's funny how you don't realize how much you care/ depend on/ need/ want someone or something until it's gone. But hey; at least in the end it does open up your eyes and you realize what an idiot you've been. Until you start re-analysing everything and then it all becomes one jumble of nothing and you just want to forget about everything but you can't and it comes back even harder when you try to not think about it. So I may not be making sense to you but it makes sense to me and I think the way things end up working out always sucks..but only for a little while, then things brighten up or at least the sun starts to make its way out from behind that dark cloud and you finally decide to open your eyes and feel the warmth come back to you.
Yeah; something like that.
P.s - Being a counsellor has been so much fun and I've met and made so many crazy cool cats but it's actually really/extremely sad knowing that I'm probably never going to see some of them again, and if I will it won't be until next summer if they or I do decide to go back. Friggin love them all!
P.p.s - I can't wait till I'm off to Simone's cottage on Friday. It's going to be a blast times a billion so I'll see all you hot-teas when I return. Loves.