insomnia due to working..
have to be up in 5 hours..guess Ill drink a beer to make me sleepy..
I never thought I would be a loner, well I've never had a lot of friends, but friends I've always had..at least a few..
I know I have some
but still, as you get older its hard to find someone who wants to go out and get drunk on a Thursday night..which is why i spent my 30th at a bar by myself, which led to me getting trashed, getting on my bike, and smashing my face upon on the pavement..
for the firtst few days I thought, wel if one of the 15 people I invited had shown up, that probably wouldn't have happened..but they didn't and it did..
I can't focus on WHAT IF, I never ahve been..its just the plain fact, that it happened, its now in the past, and theres nothing I can do about it but kind of be a dick to the people I nvited who didn;t show up without some valid excuse..
damned grudges..
I never thought I would be a loner, well I've never had a lot of friends, but friends I've always had..at least a few..
I know I have some
but still, as you get older its hard to find someone who wants to go out and get drunk on a Thursday night..which is why i spent my 30th at a bar by myself, which led to me getting trashed, getting on my bike, and smashing my face upon on the pavement..
for the firtst few days I thought, wel if one of the 15 people I invited had shown up, that probably wouldn't have happened..but they didn't and it did..
I can't focus on WHAT IF, I never ahve been..its just the plain fact, that it happened, its now in the past, and theres nothing I can do about it but kind of be a dick to the people I nvited who didn;t show up without some valid excuse..
damned grudges..