age ain' nothing at all

[polarme]

i'm breaking up with age

and i've also reached another conclusion;
there isn't a "happy ending",
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i'm saying this in the most optimistic way ever.
i think i realized this as i was watching the "minuscule"-dvd and matmos was talking about the term "you've MADE it!".
they were like, "made what"?
what would this "made it" consist of?
a big house?
a happy boyfriend?
beeing the successful artist?
a life with no downhills? only smooooth lushness?
would this bore me?
would this scare me?
yes

i like the bad in life
i like the threats
they tire me.
but i have to have them.

(p.s. i reallyreally would like to have the house and the happy boyfriend, the artsy life. but it's not the happy ending)