Emotional Chinese finger-trap

[polaris93]

A lot of people have told me over the years that I'm an ingrate because I don't want to be comforted (by them, in any conventional way). I've had real trouble explaining why to them, and eventually gave up because trying was too much trouble, and they wouldn't listen and wouldn't believe it. Well, it's caused me trouble again, so once more (sigh

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[polaris93]

Thank you -- I kinda thought you might understand, too. :-D There aren't many people in the world who do understand, and I count myself very, very fortunate to have several of them as friends on LJ, yourself included. The world would be a much lonelier, harsher place otherwise.

I try to be cheerful and even funny when I can, but I don't like to be so dishonestly, and that goes for my writing, too, including my LJ posts. At that, I think I'm a great deal healthier and socially ept than both those who try to be living Hallmark cards and those who get upset when those around them aren't willing to put on that sort of act. Such people close down a great deal of their ability to perceive the world around them in an accurate way and act appropriately on it, sort of like a self-imposed version of what I've read an opium haze does to those who indulge in it. Not good -- that can lead to Darwin Awards, if not physically, then socially or career-wise. Sometimes I feel as if I were walking through a crowd full of people studiously ignoring most of the world around them, people included -- which would make it very easy for me to make like a ninja and, well, I plead the 5th. ;-)

I hope your Christmas was great, and that 2011 will bring you every good thing. And thank you with all my heart for understanding -- the world is a warmer, brighter place for it. :-D