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here to generate 5 random numbers between 1 & 100. Comment with the character name and the five numbers, and I'll answer the five corresponding questions from
this list.
Any story/RPG is fair game. Multiples allowed.
Well, to be honest, I find it extremely difficult and a breach of trust to lie about my personal opinions and feelings. However, considering my current situation, and the country where I currently live, it could be dangerous to state them openly. It's safer all around to simply be quiet about them and let myself be overlooked. Nobody of any actual power here is worried about the opinions of some young unconnected clerk--well, dishwasher--anyway. However, if I am going to state my opinion, you may rest assured that I will be honest, and as direct as politeness and safety allow.
41. What is your greatest fear?
Her name is Rhiannon. Her, and the greater threat that I fear stands behind her.
Taking this to a more philosophical level, I think what makes this fear all the greater is that I don't know what she is or what her plans are for me. Something's going on--that I am certain. But I don't know what. The unknowing fills the shadows with all sorts of half-imagined spectres, and from where I am, it is hard to judge what I can reasonably assume to be a threat, and what might be only in my head.
63. Do you trust anyone to protect you? Who, and why?
Simply put, no. I cannot.
This is not meant as any slight to the people around me. It's not as if I don't trust them to care about me, or to want to help me. I've grown up surrounded by people I loved, who love me, and I know that I could ask them almost anything and they'd do what they could to help me. And now I'm with several people who've thrown their lot in with me (Theus knows why), and I trust, as much as I reasonably can, that they will help me when and if they are able. I trust that they will not backstab me or turn me over to my enemies. But I do not believe that they, or any mortal in Theah, are capable of truly "protecting" me from what I fear may be after me. One might send people wading into the sea to stop an immense oncoming tidal wave with about as much hope of success.
Perhaps from more mundane threats, yes, there are those I can reasonably trust. I'm sure that if I were attacked by thugs in the street, Alessandra and Gavin would help me--they're both good in a fight, from what I've seen. Philippe doesn't strike me as the sort of person who would turn his back on a comrade in need, and Foster and Gavin have pledged their support and have already helped me a great deal. Mr. Fletcher has offered to keep me on despite the danger I might bring to his establishment, and has given me a way to protect myself from the Highlander. Mademoiselle Vivienne, well--she has shown herself to be willing to assist me, but she had ulterior motives in doing so. I can trust her to protect me as long as it is not politically inconvenient.
61. Have you started your own family? If so, describe them. If not, do you want to? Why or why not?
I do not have my own family. And with the way my life is heading, I doubt I ever will be able to. And as much as I don't like dwelling on impossibilities, for the sake of this questionnaire I will answer that yes: if the situation were possible, I would love to find a woman to marry and have many children with her. Home is very important to me; home is a blessing, a place of warmth and love and safety. I believe everyone should have one. And home is nothing if it is not shared, and the rooms and halls are barren of voices. I want to marry a woman I love and respect, someone I could share my life and my thoughts with. I want children I can coddle and teach and read stories to. I want people I can love and protect and take care of. That's the meaning of family, isn't it?
44. What are your views on sex?
*blushes*
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Er--that is, um--I'm sorry, did you just ask me what my views on the sexes were?
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