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[polar5011]

I HATE MY LIFE.
I WISH FOR EVERYTHING TO CHANGE.
I NEED HELP.
GET ME OUT.
I WISH I HAD IT AS EASY AS SOME DO.
I WISH GOD, JESUS, MESSAIAH, WHOMEEVER, TO GET UP AND PHYSICALY HELP ME.
SOMEDAYS ARE GOOD.
SOME DAYS ARE HORRIBLE.
POINT IS: CHANGE HAS NOT COME EITHER WAY!
I JUST WANT SOMETHING MAGICAL TO HAPPEN.
I NEED A MIRACLE, FOR REAL FOR REAL
DO I BELIEVE IN MIRACLES?
YES.
HAS ONE EVER HAPPENED TO ME?
YES, POSSIBLE SO. DEPENDS ON WHAT YOU CALL A MIRACLE. TO SOME, WAKING UP IS A MIRACLE. TO ME, A MIRACLE IS WHEN YOU GET/UNDERSTAND SOMETHING YOU COULD NEVER ACHIEVE ON YOUR OWN.
CLEARLY I NEED SOME GREATER POWERS HELP HERE.
HOWEVER, GOD DOES NOT WISH TO HELP ME AT THIS MOMENT.
IDK Y. WHAT DID I DO SO WRONG.
I AM TIRED.
I AM BEING WASTED DAY BY DAY BY DAY.
SOMEDAYS WORSE THEN NORMAL, SOMEDAYS JUST NORMAL.
NEVER POSSITIVE, AND HAPPY AT THE SAME TIME.
I LEARN FROM EXPERIENCE, BUT RIGHT NOW, I AM A STUDENT WHO KEEPS FAILING AND REPEATING THE CLASS!
Y CANT YOU HELP ME?
MUST I BE ON THE EDGE OF SANITY TO RECIEVE HELP?
PLEASE GET ME OUT.
GOD HELP ME FIND WHAT I  LOOK FOR, ACCOMPISH WHAT I STIVE FOR, AND RECIEVE WHAT I NEED.
PLEASE.
PLEASE.
PLEASE.