ONE REASON I AM NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO BOSTON
_______ IMs me again. I don't know how to read him. But he says the same old shit. He asks me who I hooked up with, where I'm living this year and just anything revolving around my fucking sex life. And out of the blue, he's like "jonny, suck my cock". I reply "ha fuck you" and he says: "u know u like it". I tell him he's cocky and he says, "what if i just pulled my cock out in front of you in an empty room? is that cocky enough for you?" HAR! PUN! and after telling him that i wasn't gonna go after guys but stay in my room and play ps2, he says: "i'll have to come over and play while you suck my dick".
Then after he makes some of those comments, he says: "i don't wanna hook up with u. i'm just..joking around lol". WHAT THE FUCK? With my self-esteem, I don't know if he's being honest when he says that. I'm getting mixed signals. But I'm thinking even if he doesn't wanna get with me, he wants to know I'd get with him. That I'm always there in case he wants to bust a nut (ew).
God..fuck him. I hate that he's attractive cause it makes it harder to hate him. I wish he'd fuckin grow up. He's always callin me a whore, a slut, etc. even when he has no fuckin clue who I've gotten with.
I hate it. I hate that this is what I've gotten myself into. Instead of being a normal person who meets guys, goes on dates, waits to fuck, etc. I've become the person who gets drunk, randomly texts guys, tells them to come over and mess around. And I wake up in the morning feeling shitty.
I can't be like this anymore. I can't deal with people like _________ anymore. And he's so pissing me off with his dumbass away messages: "loving life", "i love my life", "life is good". FUCK YOU ASSHOLE, YOU TREAT ME LIKE SHIT. He needs to be taught a fucking lesson. Next time that prick asks to "hang out", he's getting punched in the face.
Here's to hoping I find a normal boy that, you know, I could date.
Then after he makes some of those comments, he says: "i don't wanna hook up with u. i'm just..joking around lol". WHAT THE FUCK? With my self-esteem, I don't know if he's being honest when he says that. I'm getting mixed signals. But I'm thinking even if he doesn't wanna get with me, he wants to know I'd get with him. That I'm always there in case he wants to bust a nut (ew).
God..fuck him. I hate that he's attractive cause it makes it harder to hate him. I wish he'd fuckin grow up. He's always callin me a whore, a slut, etc. even when he has no fuckin clue who I've gotten with.
I hate it. I hate that this is what I've gotten myself into. Instead of being a normal person who meets guys, goes on dates, waits to fuck, etc. I've become the person who gets drunk, randomly texts guys, tells them to come over and mess around. And I wake up in the morning feeling shitty.
I can't be like this anymore. I can't deal with people like _________ anymore. And he's so pissing me off with his dumbass away messages: "loving life", "i love my life", "life is good". FUCK YOU ASSHOLE, YOU TREAT ME LIKE SHIT. He needs to be taught a fucking lesson. Next time that prick asks to "hang out", he's getting punched in the face.
Here's to hoping I find a normal boy that, you know, I could date.