May 11, 2005 13:00
why do i let myself do this?
why do i have to get so caught up?
its all gunna end before i realize it...maybe for the better but maybe not...i just wish it could last longer...
when it has just begun, it has to end...WHY!?
i thought this was just a....but i make it not...grrr...
advice from amelio "have fun while it lasts" but knowing it will end is so disheartening....
i hate how u cant control ur feelings....