You're in my very soul, tormenting me.
So uh...
Greg and I broke up. At 4:40 am after we went to a midnight showing of The Muppets.
I told him about everything I already ranted about here... the mixed signals, his lack of effort to work on the things he's unhappy about, him taking his moods out on me. He told me again that as a friend and as a companion he couldn't be happier... but he felt such a disconnect with our sex life. A problem with our intimacy. I don't think he quite knows that there's a huge difference between sex and intimacy. The kind of sex he wanted had none. I realize now that although he wanted to have sex, he didn't want to have sex with ME. I gave him the choice of staying together if he honestly worked hard on reaching his goals and actually put in effort into our relationship. OR break up. After a couple hours of silence he said he should probably break up because he doesn't think he can get over his issues.
I still have to go back and get all my stuff from his apartment. I was supposed to on Wednesday evening, but he never texted me to say he was home so I could come over.
I've been ok. Better than I expected, but it gets pretty bad sometimes. Like I almost started crying at Thanksgiving dinner with my mom because she brought up plans for Christmas... Greg had wanted to take me home with him to meet his family.
I don't really know what to do. Usually I just rush myself right back into dating.
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Greg and I broke up. At 4:40 am after we went to a midnight showing of The Muppets.
I told him about everything I already ranted about here... the mixed signals, his lack of effort to work on the things he's unhappy about, him taking his moods out on me. He told me again that as a friend and as a companion he couldn't be happier... but he felt such a disconnect with our sex life. A problem with our intimacy. I don't think he quite knows that there's a huge difference between sex and intimacy. The kind of sex he wanted had none. I realize now that although he wanted to have sex, he didn't want to have sex with ME. I gave him the choice of staying together if he honestly worked hard on reaching his goals and actually put in effort into our relationship. OR break up. After a couple hours of silence he said he should probably break up because he doesn't think he can get over his issues.
I still have to go back and get all my stuff from his apartment. I was supposed to on Wednesday evening, but he never texted me to say he was home so I could come over.
I've been ok. Better than I expected, but it gets pretty bad sometimes. Like I almost started crying at Thanksgiving dinner with my mom because she brought up plans for Christmas... Greg had wanted to take me home with him to meet his family.
I don't really know what to do. Usually I just rush myself right back into dating.
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