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Hello everyone. Todays one of those days when I'm not feeling particularly happy and I've got lots on my mind. The main trouble of my mind is this feeling of emptiness I've been feeling lately. Its that odd feeling that you get when you know you have everything yet you feel like you have nothing. I appreciate very much what I do have and I'm glad that I do have what I have but it always seems to me like something is just missing in my life. The final piece of the puzzle that can give me that happiness which I so desire. The days pass on and I can't find that missing piece and I wonder sometimes what in the world could that missing piece be? Its an enigma that constantly troubles me and always has me pensive. Of course who am I to be complaining about anything when there are millions of others who are worse off than me and I'm sitting here complaining about my emotions. Its selfish when you think about it because you're putting your petty problems before actual serious problems. But then we have to remember we can't spend all our time worrying about others we do have to think about ourselves. Quite confusing is how my mind is right now. Full of doubts and memories I tread on wondering what each new day holds for me. Sometimes I grow tired of repeating the same cycle and going through this emptiness over and over but I keep faith that one day I'll end it. How or when is a question I have no answer to. My only refuge is my music and my words whether they be poetry or a simple entry in this livejournal. I feel compelled to keep much of my emotions quiet because people usually think that somethings really wrong with me and quickly do I see their caring those who actually do care about me. Few those number though many say they do care about me I know which people really mean it because saying you care about someone means nothing its how you show them that you care about them that counts. Actions shape our destinys our choices are nothing more than out actions. I take many different actions so in my eyes my destiny isn't clear nor will it ever be then again whos destiny is ever clear?... - RV