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work sucked. i thought tonight was going to be cool and fun. no.what i thought was happening was just false hopes.for once i just want something to work with me not against me. i thought i'd like to take crystal out and do something. i was wrong.maybe this weekend.i feel like i've done something to make her mad. or change the way she sees me.i'm very afraid she will leave me.i fuckin pray she don't .i have alot of fun with her. and she is like my best friend.life would suck without her.that's all negative thought. pushing on.my tire was flat . but it's cool now. today just sucked in every manner. if i don't wake up tomarow.... man.... that would be allright.