Quarter Life Crisis
Everything in my life is perfect. As perfect as life can be anyway. All the important things are there. True love, sweet pad, working vehicle, amazing friends and family, and the $$ to finance all my fun adventures. Literally all I could possibly ask for. Except my job is standing in the way of me enjoying all of that fabulousness fully.
My theory on work has always been that it is the means to and end. A way to make money. Thats about it. Its good to like your job as much as you can but I really don't think it is possible to find something that you start out liking and keep liking forever. Because nothing is static, everything is changing all the time. Same with jobs. The direction my job is going in at the moment is making me miserable. So right now I'm pretty much decided that the job has to go eventually. Kind of riding a wave and seeing where it takes me. But the main thing holding me back (besides all the clients I love and would miss seeing every month or two) is that I don't know whether I need to lose the job or lose the career altogether and start something new.
I could stay a hairdresser and change to something different, like specializing in color. I could rent a chair and go into business for myself. I could stick to the same type of field and become an esthetician or massage therapist, which seem a little mellower and less "small talk" is required.
Or here is my newest most intriguing option, mostly because it came out of nowhere -
When my mom was in the hospital with appendicitis her nurses sucked. Just at the basic stuff like checking on her pain, or getting blankets or just saying hi. And they were in plain sight sitting at desks, so its not like they were running all over and couldn't take a minute to peek in. I was so annoyed that night that I was like "I should become a damn nurse." And then I actually thought about it and was seriously pondering the thought.
Then today, I was online looking up my actual birth chart (real astrology uses time and place of birth to give you a more detailed description of your "sign" which is really a unique combination of factors) after a client, also a good friends mom, inspired me to. I used to have a fascination with astrology and haven't thought about it for a while. The planetary position chart related to destiny said the following:
Medical profession. Serviceable and generous nature.
She is devoted to sick or poor people. Certainly works in a medical or social setting
Not like im saying this chart is my destiny set in stone, but the combination of those two events and the timing of them makes me wonder...
Philosophically I feel like being a nurse or a nurses assistant or something would match my personality better than being a hairdresser. I mean I'm all about making people feel good and learning a trade and doing it well, but sometimes the importance that our guests place on their looks is sickening. I have many people who I thoroughly enjoy talking to and laughing with, but my industry as a whole is not so appealing unless you only focus on the artistic side of things. Helping sick people would probably be more rewarding, and at least you would have compassion for your patients. Some of these divas that come to the salon, I have zero compassion or understanding for them or the little world they have created for themselves.
Also reading my birth chart there were many qualities that I could really relate to, which made me realize how disconnected I have been feeling from myself lately. And work is to blame. I'm just stressed and angry and snappy all the time and I hate it because really I feel tired, unmotivated, and wore down. I can never leave work without being angry about something and it always involves my co-workers.
All I want to do right now is hole up in my house, turn off my phone, and just have fun with life for a little bit.
My theory on work has always been that it is the means to and end. A way to make money. Thats about it. Its good to like your job as much as you can but I really don't think it is possible to find something that you start out liking and keep liking forever. Because nothing is static, everything is changing all the time. Same with jobs. The direction my job is going in at the moment is making me miserable. So right now I'm pretty much decided that the job has to go eventually. Kind of riding a wave and seeing where it takes me. But the main thing holding me back (besides all the clients I love and would miss seeing every month or two) is that I don't know whether I need to lose the job or lose the career altogether and start something new.
I could stay a hairdresser and change to something different, like specializing in color. I could rent a chair and go into business for myself. I could stick to the same type of field and become an esthetician or massage therapist, which seem a little mellower and less "small talk" is required.
Or here is my newest most intriguing option, mostly because it came out of nowhere -
When my mom was in the hospital with appendicitis her nurses sucked. Just at the basic stuff like checking on her pain, or getting blankets or just saying hi. And they were in plain sight sitting at desks, so its not like they were running all over and couldn't take a minute to peek in. I was so annoyed that night that I was like "I should become a damn nurse." And then I actually thought about it and was seriously pondering the thought.
Then today, I was online looking up my actual birth chart (real astrology uses time and place of birth to give you a more detailed description of your "sign" which is really a unique combination of factors) after a client, also a good friends mom, inspired me to. I used to have a fascination with astrology and haven't thought about it for a while. The planetary position chart related to destiny said the following:
Medical profession. Serviceable and generous nature.
She is devoted to sick or poor people. Certainly works in a medical or social setting
Not like im saying this chart is my destiny set in stone, but the combination of those two events and the timing of them makes me wonder...
Philosophically I feel like being a nurse or a nurses assistant or something would match my personality better than being a hairdresser. I mean I'm all about making people feel good and learning a trade and doing it well, but sometimes the importance that our guests place on their looks is sickening. I have many people who I thoroughly enjoy talking to and laughing with, but my industry as a whole is not so appealing unless you only focus on the artistic side of things. Helping sick people would probably be more rewarding, and at least you would have compassion for your patients. Some of these divas that come to the salon, I have zero compassion or understanding for them or the little world they have created for themselves.
Also reading my birth chart there were many qualities that I could really relate to, which made me realize how disconnected I have been feeling from myself lately. And work is to blame. I'm just stressed and angry and snappy all the time and I hate it because really I feel tired, unmotivated, and wore down. I can never leave work without being angry about something and it always involves my co-workers.
All I want to do right now is hole up in my house, turn off my phone, and just have fun with life for a little bit.