sigh...
Rough day. It started out well. I got a lot of things done today and I woke up by 1030. I went to the guidance office to get my transcript so I can bring it down there myself tomorrow. So then they have no excuse for losing it. It's been sent 2 times already. They lost my final high school transcript and my letters of recommendation. I was so mad. Anyway, the good thing was that my transcript didn't look as bad as I remembered it. then I went to get a haircut. I stopped at big y to pick up some apple juice and another daily planner cause i lost my other one.
I hate fighting with brian for the car. If it were my way, which is the right way, if you think about it and you're smart, he wouldn't take the car to school at all. Unfortunately, it's not up to me. It's up to my mom. She wants to let brian drive the car to school and if i need it for something, my mom and I would have to drive to the school to pick up the car. So that would be at least two days a week. The way I see it, if he's leaving the car at the school for at least 9 hours every day and on tuesdays and thursdays it's gonna be sitting there in the parking lot unused for 12 hours, then he shouldn't get to bring a car to school. If he needs a ride, I can go get him or he can get another ride. Because we're not rich. we only have 2 cars and I have things to do like rehearsals, and work, and errands. He's just taking the car to school and leaving it there. You know? After work, I might go over to erin's for a few hours or we might go out to lunch. I mean, this is rediculous. And my mom is letting him get away with it. what's going on?
Anyway, then I had my lesson. 3 hours and very very bad. I think it was my worse lesson in about 6 months. I sounded so bad. I didn't know my solos and my chops were sooo tired. I could do my etudes and some excerpts but we didn't do those today. I mean, I've practiced or at least warmed up for the past week and half. But after about half an hour my chops are tired and I just don't wanna play anymore or have to go do something else.
So I'm praying that I'll have a good audition on Saturday and get a full scholarship again, but based on my lack of practice and preparation, I'm expecting a bad one. Anyway, wish me luck.
I miss erin. I wish she were here to make me feel better about myself. good night.
I hate fighting with brian for the car. If it were my way, which is the right way, if you think about it and you're smart, he wouldn't take the car to school at all. Unfortunately, it's not up to me. It's up to my mom. She wants to let brian drive the car to school and if i need it for something, my mom and I would have to drive to the school to pick up the car. So that would be at least two days a week. The way I see it, if he's leaving the car at the school for at least 9 hours every day and on tuesdays and thursdays it's gonna be sitting there in the parking lot unused for 12 hours, then he shouldn't get to bring a car to school. If he needs a ride, I can go get him or he can get another ride. Because we're not rich. we only have 2 cars and I have things to do like rehearsals, and work, and errands. He's just taking the car to school and leaving it there. You know? After work, I might go over to erin's for a few hours or we might go out to lunch. I mean, this is rediculous. And my mom is letting him get away with it. what's going on?
Anyway, then I had my lesson. 3 hours and very very bad. I think it was my worse lesson in about 6 months. I sounded so bad. I didn't know my solos and my chops were sooo tired. I could do my etudes and some excerpts but we didn't do those today. I mean, I've practiced or at least warmed up for the past week and half. But after about half an hour my chops are tired and I just don't wanna play anymore or have to go do something else.
So I'm praying that I'll have a good audition on Saturday and get a full scholarship again, but based on my lack of practice and preparation, I'm expecting a bad one. Anyway, wish me luck.
I miss erin. I wish she were here to make me feel better about myself. good night.