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I feel so strange and isolated. I mean, don't get me wrong, I'm happy with my family, but alone feeling. The worst part is that I just sit and brood over it than make an actual effort. I have free time now that I'm not at the hospital anymore. Not like I do much with it. I actually don't know what I do with my time anymore. It just disappears and I realize that I got absolutely nothing done. I feel like I push my friends away. Either that or they just run away. Whatever. If it's the former, sorry. If its the latter, well I'm sorry you didn't decide that sooner. I know it doesn't help that I'm a weirdo that actually enjoys being married and being a parent. WHOOO freak. I'm still me believe it or not. Everyone needs friends, maybe I just need a change of pace.
Its so strange that everyone is graduating this year. I can pretty much get a job anywhere because I'm medical staff, so we will be going wherever James needs to. He was banking everything on grad school, which already might mean moving. I was keeping my fingers crossed for UR. However, there was a job fair recently and he got 3 pretty interesting offers to set up interviews. Job #1 is in Buffalo (not awful) doing R&D for 3-d televisions. Hologram projections, pretty much. That sounds pretty sweet. Job #2 is in Baltimore, MD for the electronics division of some tech company that develops aerospace prototypes for the US Government and the private sector. Job #3 is R&D for Microsoft in Silicon Valley. CALIFORNIA! WTF!?!? Microsoft and the Baltimore place are talking about setting up dates to fly him out for interviews and whatnot. They are both also offering to pay for all moving/travel expenses (naturally) and Microsoft will buy us a house and car and a pretty wonderful benefits package including stock. Nice. ALMOST making me say that moving cross-country is ok...but not quite. I really don't want to leave Rochester. I really really don't want to leave New York. I really really really don't want to leave the East Coast. It's so outside of my comfort level. Only if I absolutely HAVE to move us out there...it just sucks. A lot. And then I really won't have many friends.
On a side note, I am really desperate to do something with my hair. Cut it, color it, something that is really different. But I'm also out of ideas on that one. I'm just too lazy.
Its so strange that everyone is graduating this year. I can pretty much get a job anywhere because I'm medical staff, so we will be going wherever James needs to. He was banking everything on grad school, which already might mean moving. I was keeping my fingers crossed for UR. However, there was a job fair recently and he got 3 pretty interesting offers to set up interviews. Job #1 is in Buffalo (not awful) doing R&D for 3-d televisions. Hologram projections, pretty much. That sounds pretty sweet. Job #2 is in Baltimore, MD for the electronics division of some tech company that develops aerospace prototypes for the US Government and the private sector. Job #3 is R&D for Microsoft in Silicon Valley. CALIFORNIA! WTF!?!? Microsoft and the Baltimore place are talking about setting up dates to fly him out for interviews and whatnot. They are both also offering to pay for all moving/travel expenses (naturally) and Microsoft will buy us a house and car and a pretty wonderful benefits package including stock. Nice. ALMOST making me say that moving cross-country is ok...but not quite. I really don't want to leave Rochester. I really really don't want to leave New York. I really really really don't want to leave the East Coast. It's so outside of my comfort level. Only if I absolutely HAVE to move us out there...it just sucks. A lot. And then I really won't have many friends.
On a side note, I am really desperate to do something with my hair. Cut it, color it, something that is really different. But I'm also out of ideas on that one. I'm just too lazy.