So I guess I'm more broken than I thought.
So I just replied to a craigslist post, just a random looking for a friend of the opposite sex sort. Nothing too serious but somehow just the idea that I'm attempting to make contact with people is making me sick to my stomach. I seriously wish that there was some way to call back that email. I wish I had never sent it because I don't want whoever it is to have my email address and try to contact me. I can't handle someone wanting to contact me. Wanting to have a normal conversation with me like I'm a normal human being capable of having real human relationships. I'm too broken for this, especially right now. I don't know what to do. I'm freaking out. I'm just too broken. Ok so it just might be almost time to think about that thing that I don't want to think about. Maybe I should start planning to check myself into a hospital.