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i'm painting you with stars

i'm drowning in the air

you're an airborne apocalypse,
please don't let me breathe you in.

i feel you in my bones
on my lips
in my stomach
beside my heart
within my chest
inside of me.

you can trace my scars with your fingers

I immerse myself in the scalding hot bathtub, submerging my head slowly
My heart rising in my throat, colliding with the sharp air
curled beneath me, my dreams floar upwards to the ceiling like smoke
floating through the air, into the clouds, into the sky
hot water reminds me that i'm alive
it reminds me that crimson cherry blood flows through my veins
i've checked, i bleed
my blood is like sugar, sweet, bitter, intoxicating
it's all hallucinations
the water
the blood
the dreams
the sighs
it reminds me that i'm alive.