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so around 6 we got to my grandparents and mindy and my u. pedro where there too. it was nice, I had two glasses of wine. It relaxed me. my brother called me an "alchy" lameass.
my parents started talking crap about me right infront of everyone and where saying crap about the whole night with jordan adn jade leaving and i got fed up with it and them talking crap about me and i like just left and went into my room at my grandparents and cried. then my mom came in and i told her to get the fuck out and i locked myself in my bathroom adn turned on the faucets so i couldnt hear her talking, then after she left i went and got my cdplayer from ym room and went back in and listened to chars and mys "lifes weird" cd. then i just cried and stared at teh ceiling, eventually i went back to my room, adn i opened the windown curtain blind things and looked out and just cried.
cried about how much i hate ym parents.
cried about how im nothing like them adn they hate me for it.
cried about trey.
cried about me thinking I momentarily had someone then the realization that I didnt.
cried about not seeing jordan, cassie and jade.
cried about how i think char likes trey and vise versa
cried about how i think chars going to rub it into my face about it
but its like...im so bipolar. cuz while i was soooo sooo sad, I just remebered funyn shit at the same time, great moments with trey, that just made me laugh, great moments at chars house...last night with parker and steven and me being "the pimp" and "the coolest most gangsta girl at xavier"
but overall, i was just completely upset and had a lot of realizations.
i hate my family.
my parents started talking crap about me right infront of everyone and where saying crap about the whole night with jordan adn jade leaving and i got fed up with it and them talking crap about me and i like just left and went into my room at my grandparents and cried. then my mom came in and i told her to get the fuck out and i locked myself in my bathroom adn turned on the faucets so i couldnt hear her talking, then after she left i went and got my cdplayer from ym room and went back in and listened to chars and mys "lifes weird" cd. then i just cried and stared at teh ceiling, eventually i went back to my room, adn i opened the windown curtain blind things and looked out and just cried.
cried about how much i hate ym parents.
cried about how im nothing like them adn they hate me for it.
cried about trey.
cried about me thinking I momentarily had someone then the realization that I didnt.
cried about not seeing jordan, cassie and jade.
cried about how i think char likes trey and vise versa
cried about how i think chars going to rub it into my face about it
but its like...im so bipolar. cuz while i was soooo sooo sad, I just remebered funyn shit at the same time, great moments with trey, that just made me laugh, great moments at chars house...last night with parker and steven and me being "the pimp" and "the coolest most gangsta girl at xavier"
but overall, i was just completely upset and had a lot of realizations.
i hate my family.