Thoughts

[poiuppx]

A lot has happened to the people I care about lately. Happening, I guess, would be the better way to put it. I'm not going to pull a gossip deal, name names, but... it's just left me thinking. I mean, when I first heard some of the stuff people were dealing with, I felt bad. Just this, this weird obligatory feeling I can't help that tells me,

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Man behind the mystery

[thunderheavyarm]

It's been over 2 years since the post was written, but for those of you who I didn't take into confidence or caught wind of the passing of my Grandmother's death, it's me he is referring to. As of 11/22/06 Frances McMahon, the women who was kind to everyone she ever met, passed on after battling Leukemia for over 8 months. She slowly feel into delusion only coming out briefly to the sound of my crying and pleading that she wouldn't die. For several months I prepared my emotional defenses to the point that for several months after I felt nothing. Joy, sorrow, regret, humor, nothing. To this day it still hurts to think that I will never be able to go to her for advice, that I only listened to half the things she ever told me, and she was unable to give me any comfort before her passing...but I will live on. I have very good friends who I know will support me during bad times, share advice, and enjoy good times with me. In the end, I know that everyone who met her felt some loss in the world no matter how minor at the time of her passing. I know that I shall never forget her and I will never stop mourning her passing. But I will not let it stop me from continuing on with my life, because she wouldn't want me to do that.