It's not that I don't want to...
Click to viewI just can't.
I'm sick of burdening everyone by ranting. I feel so selfish by doing it. I haven't talked to anyone about /him/. People occasionally ask me about him and I just try to keep it sweet and simple. I'll rant about anything but him. Don't think I've stopped talking to any of you guys about my problems... it's just lately everything was getting so hard. I'm fucking up in school again, and have this weekend to fix that. I'm just glad everything is getting better for those who were really near the end. Amanda woke from her coma and you're getting help.
I'm really glad.
Perhaps my stress will fall and I'll be okay again. I'll be able to have a happyish life. He did finally contact me yesterday after all. It was his internet again, as I thought, and he misses me. I think he's worried about me, which makes me angry at myself. I think I've realized that no one likes to be worried about. Not you or me. Not anyone. But we can't stop people from worrying, can we? It sucks.
Christmas is coming soon... I want to make/get you guys all something. So you have anything you want that I can fulfill, tell me!
I love you guys, fer realz.
- Ash