The Harvest Dance
It was very fun. Could have been better in a few areas, but good overall.
Britt and I have mastered the Soulja Boy. ;D
I miss Richie. I swear, if he was here then I wouldn't even really give a damn about stupid Cody. I almost wish I never had grown so attached to Richie, because I know everything would be easier in a sense. Yet, every time I think about the future and us... I can't see myself not being with him. I blame High School and being a teenager. I wish Cody stayed at the Charter School. I can't talk to him anymore, but I still want to at least be friends. My jealousy really took hold last night too, but I didn't let it stop me from having fun. I wanted to say "Hi" to Gus too, but of course I was too insecure about it. I shouldn't be, because we're both on good terms now. Half of me isn't willing to accept all this change within the last year though.
I've moved.
Made better, new friends.
Tried to make up for the past that I messed up.
Fell in love.
Have way better grades than ever.
It's really impressive almost. Yet there's always something inside me that stops me from doing certain things that the new me wants to do. I need to grow up more probably. I'm not sure, but somehow I have to lose this one part of me and just be carefree like I should be. It's who I really am, I know it. I know that I'm supposed to be happy most of the time, not depressed. I'm not saying I shouldn't ever be depressed, because it's inevitable to be like that sometimes. But as you grow, you should realize you're not the only one with problems. Everyone has a completely different life.
Life's insane... very much so.
- Ashley
Britt and I have mastered the Soulja Boy. ;D
I miss Richie. I swear, if he was here then I wouldn't even really give a damn about stupid Cody. I almost wish I never had grown so attached to Richie, because I know everything would be easier in a sense. Yet, every time I think about the future and us... I can't see myself not being with him. I blame High School and being a teenager. I wish Cody stayed at the Charter School. I can't talk to him anymore, but I still want to at least be friends. My jealousy really took hold last night too, but I didn't let it stop me from having fun. I wanted to say "Hi" to Gus too, but of course I was too insecure about it. I shouldn't be, because we're both on good terms now. Half of me isn't willing to accept all this change within the last year though.
I've moved.
Made better, new friends.
Tried to make up for the past that I messed up.
Fell in love.
Have way better grades than ever.
It's really impressive almost. Yet there's always something inside me that stops me from doing certain things that the new me wants to do. I need to grow up more probably. I'm not sure, but somehow I have to lose this one part of me and just be carefree like I should be. It's who I really am, I know it. I know that I'm supposed to be happy most of the time, not depressed. I'm not saying I shouldn't ever be depressed, because it's inevitable to be like that sometimes. But as you grow, you should realize you're not the only one with problems. Everyone has a completely different life.
Life's insane... very much so.
- Ashley