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I have to say me being happy right now is a lie. I cant seem to put my best foot forward and just continue the way i should. Im really disappointed in my self and the way i have been living. In the past year i have done exstremly well in school up to a few months ago. I dont know why im letting this happend. I need to stop focusing on stuff that is not that important and just focus on where i want to be and how im going to get there doing whatever it takes. I should have went to australia cause i already blew transferring this next semester which almost makes me sick inside. I feel like im loosing grip of what needs to be done in life and im scared. Maybe one day i will wake up and realise that this is the farthest thing from what makes me happy and what have i been doing this whole time besides wasting time. drained. " what to do when your entire identity is destroyed in an insant how do you cope when your whole life story turns out to be wrong....... that bitch" on a higher side my brothers sobriety right now means the world to me. I cant even say how happy that makes me. Im tired of wanting so much and getting so less from someone