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[poisonxxgirl]

I hate this.
My stomach hurts.
and I have this panicked feeling all the time.
why is this happening again?
something I've done?
havent done?
something I did but didnt do right?
I thought last time would be my only time to feel that way.
I feel better when I'm around my friends.
Theyre amazing
but I'm never 100%

all I want is that night
friends
crazy poems
and texts from two feet away
arabica
driveways
and mid sentence breaks for possibly the best feeling of my life.

fuck.

Maybe Joey was right in telling me not to be sad about it.
that theres nothing to be sad about.
that I've done absolutely nothing wrong.
and it will all get better with time.
but, its not really that easy.
that kid is honestly my best friend
I dont know what I'd do without him.
probably go insane
I've known him for almost two years now
it doesnt seem that long but at the same time it seems like hes one of the kids I grew up with.
we've been through so much together
and hes still always there for me with a hug and some gay joke to make me smile when I need him.
irreplaceable.