Everyone knows i'm in over my head...over my head...
So with all this ISU business...
i honestly don't think i can deal.
I can't even register for my classes without a million things going wrong.
I had another breakdown, only this one was on the phone with my mom.
But she made me feel better, she said she'd help me.
Which only makes me not want to leave...i don't want to not be able to see my mom on a regular basis.
Sure it sounds juvenile...but i love my mom, and i don't know what i'll do when i can't sit on the couch at night with her watching tv or a movie after a long, annoying day. We might not talk much during those times...but sometimes not talking means more.
I honestly tell my mom everything, she used to get so upset because i wouldn't talk to her about anything...i don't know how i got along with telling her things...
I guess i'm just scared, ISU is coming along fast, and everything is so stressful.
Also, Korey's for sure going to Columbia.
My best friend, who's been there since Kindergarden...2 hours away.
No mom, no best friend...no woman's point of view.
I'm sure, i hope, i probably won't make new friends. I'm usually not one to make friends easily at all.
I'm just scared...as much as i hate to admit it.
My last day at the mall is April 30.
That leaves me a week and a half before i start the city.
AND that week and a half will be filled with nothing but school work.
Finals, papers...
ALL i do is complain lately, but i honestly have nothing else to talk about.
I swear i'm falling apart...it's like...all this stuff is pulling me in all these directiosn and all i want to do is lay down...
College...it's rough fucking stuff.
I'm about ready to drop out.
i honestly don't think i can deal.
I can't even register for my classes without a million things going wrong.
I had another breakdown, only this one was on the phone with my mom.
But she made me feel better, she said she'd help me.
Which only makes me not want to leave...i don't want to not be able to see my mom on a regular basis.
Sure it sounds juvenile...but i love my mom, and i don't know what i'll do when i can't sit on the couch at night with her watching tv or a movie after a long, annoying day. We might not talk much during those times...but sometimes not talking means more.
I honestly tell my mom everything, she used to get so upset because i wouldn't talk to her about anything...i don't know how i got along with telling her things...
I guess i'm just scared, ISU is coming along fast, and everything is so stressful.
Also, Korey's for sure going to Columbia.
My best friend, who's been there since Kindergarden...2 hours away.
No mom, no best friend...no woman's point of view.
I'm sure, i hope, i probably won't make new friends. I'm usually not one to make friends easily at all.
I'm just scared...as much as i hate to admit it.
My last day at the mall is April 30.
That leaves me a week and a half before i start the city.
AND that week and a half will be filled with nothing but school work.
Finals, papers...
ALL i do is complain lately, but i honestly have nothing else to talk about.
I swear i'm falling apart...it's like...all this stuff is pulling me in all these directiosn and all i want to do is lay down...
College...it's rough fucking stuff.
I'm about ready to drop out.