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Uhm...
I yelled at Kevin today. Which seems like nothing, because I yell at you people all the time. But I just don't yell or try to pick fights with him. But I don't feel bad that I did it...I feel like I had a right to do it. I mean, I've dealt with so much lately concerning him and his girlfriend and me not being his girlfriend and it's all like one big soap opera, and that's not what I want. I know what I want. And it's really not too much to ask. But today was just not cool. I don't care that someone could have possibly told Brooke what's going on. I don't know this chick. Nor do I want to. She's just another person, and as far as I'm concerned, she just got in the way of what I had/wanted/want. But for him to get mad at me for telling someone about it, NO. It doesn't work like that. You do NOT lie to your girlfriend, then break up with her for someone else, then when she still decides to want to be hopeful and treat you like nothing happened, you do not expect her to feel bad when your friendship with your new girlfriend is jeopardized. Because she, as in me, well, I don't care. He created this situation for himself. His relationship with her was a lie the whole time anyway. I guess it's a matter of trying to have it all. But you can't have it all. One or the other. I'm not fucking around anymore. I'm not going to be nice and understanding and say "oh, it's okay. I just want you to be happy." cause guess what? I want to be happy too. I do want him to be happy, but with me. I'm going to do what I need to ensure that I don't get fucked over anymore. He knows what I want, and he supposedly knows what he wants, so let's cut to the chase already. Besides, he couldn't replace me. But I'm done rambling about this. I feel better now.
I yelled at Kevin today. Which seems like nothing, because I yell at you people all the time. But I just don't yell or try to pick fights with him. But I don't feel bad that I did it...I feel like I had a right to do it. I mean, I've dealt with so much lately concerning him and his girlfriend and me not being his girlfriend and it's all like one big soap opera, and that's not what I want. I know what I want. And it's really not too much to ask. But today was just not cool. I don't care that someone could have possibly told Brooke what's going on. I don't know this chick. Nor do I want to. She's just another person, and as far as I'm concerned, she just got in the way of what I had/wanted/want. But for him to get mad at me for telling someone about it, NO. It doesn't work like that. You do NOT lie to your girlfriend, then break up with her for someone else, then when she still decides to want to be hopeful and treat you like nothing happened, you do not expect her to feel bad when your friendship with your new girlfriend is jeopardized. Because she, as in me, well, I don't care. He created this situation for himself. His relationship with her was a lie the whole time anyway. I guess it's a matter of trying to have it all. But you can't have it all. One or the other. I'm not fucking around anymore. I'm not going to be nice and understanding and say "oh, it's okay. I just want you to be happy." cause guess what? I want to be happy too. I do want him to be happy, but with me. I'm going to do what I need to ensure that I don't get fucked over anymore. He knows what I want, and he supposedly knows what he wants, so let's cut to the chase already. Besides, he couldn't replace me. But I'm done rambling about this. I feel better now.