what the hell i can have a journal again
i am so confused lately with just everything. im having a hard time expressing myself, i dont think anyone really understands me well enough anymore. my best friends turned out to be well... less of that it niocer terms. ud be suprised of how easile zelous people ar eanymore. jealousy, over guys drugs looks money anything. i hate to see what will become of us later.
i cant let things go i learned recently what matters most to me and whats keepin me from happiness. i dont mean to sound so dark bout things im not my look on life is extreamly rare, im 16 ive been arrested and homeless, i have no father, i dont trust mant people, i like to laugh and party, an di want to be loved after recently being heart broken it is hard to get back on that horse.
life isnt what u make it, there are consequences for everything, everything.....
i dont even know where to begin i have so much to say but no mouth to speak,
i guess i will fill u all in later on my perspectives on shit as it comes but for now about my self. i dont have a best friend, i have a few amazing people whom i care very much about other than that they are to be aquaintences.
i have a dog. a mom, a sister, and my mother and i for once are getting along and have been for a few weeks now i love it i have my freedom even if i roll up in the house at 430 am she just is happy to see me.
i will admit i do have a bit of a substance abuse problem, but i am handling it very well in my opinion.
i no longer want mike back, i think... i dont know ok thats a damn lie i miss him horribly i just try my best to forget why. can u blame me? i have no sholder to cry on. and latly he has been a little edgy with me. understandable.
i love him with every last drop of blood, but hes changed as i have and matt told me i dont love him i love who he used to be, its true. sadly i am worried bout him, he is always pissed he tells me hes happy but i cant believe him he dosent talk like he used too. he just seems to be missing something. i really dont miss our times out like partys ar anything but i miss the dumb shit like waking up next to him, and fuckin till odd hours of the night, i miss late night talks and smoke breaks washing the car concerts vacations u name it i miss it. i like my new people better than the ones we used to chill with.
i am reading alot lately and am in the process of starting a new badn with luvy.
im fuckin gettin bad ass at this screamin stuff lol
i am very happy with my life but i crave more, more excitement, more everything money power freedom i dont want to depend on anyone are anything, i hate being
fuck it never mind
its a long story and i doubt it makes sence to anyone but whatever.
i just want to know whats it like to be free from the chains? to fuckin run and have noi destination to be known everything like that absolute freedom where u can take comfort in a nice day and miles of road
i like to party i party hard too damn its getin to me its a cheep way to forget things im getin better at it though
i have sortta a thing for a friend right now
nick is just amazing we have been unofficial for like a month or so but hes great he was the lead singer for nymphatic ther eamazing
enough about thaty time will tell the rest
but i just want otbe respected as a person and loved for myself
i am an amazin person i know it
not to be conceded
but i am a good person
i am loyal and honest now and i hope people are willing to give me another chance
when i am willing to give my last breath
new mudc=vayne is awsomw
im tired
i wasnt lying when i told you no words could describe the way i feel bout you
there arent enough or one deep enough to express it and were not even together and i feel this way
i am not sorry for the way things turned out i just wish it could have been different
i dont even remember why
u know what another time
ok
its bein avoided again
who the fuck cares anyway its the past right??
i will try n keep this updated i am terrible when it come to remembering things
forgive me
maybe tommorrow brings good tidings
pray for those with no extremidys
skindred rocks my sox
i cant let things go i learned recently what matters most to me and whats keepin me from happiness. i dont mean to sound so dark bout things im not my look on life is extreamly rare, im 16 ive been arrested and homeless, i have no father, i dont trust mant people, i like to laugh and party, an di want to be loved after recently being heart broken it is hard to get back on that horse.
life isnt what u make it, there are consequences for everything, everything.....
i dont even know where to begin i have so much to say but no mouth to speak,
i guess i will fill u all in later on my perspectives on shit as it comes but for now about my self. i dont have a best friend, i have a few amazing people whom i care very much about other than that they are to be aquaintences.
i have a dog. a mom, a sister, and my mother and i for once are getting along and have been for a few weeks now i love it i have my freedom even if i roll up in the house at 430 am she just is happy to see me.
i will admit i do have a bit of a substance abuse problem, but i am handling it very well in my opinion.
i no longer want mike back, i think... i dont know ok thats a damn lie i miss him horribly i just try my best to forget why. can u blame me? i have no sholder to cry on. and latly he has been a little edgy with me. understandable.
i love him with every last drop of blood, but hes changed as i have and matt told me i dont love him i love who he used to be, its true. sadly i am worried bout him, he is always pissed he tells me hes happy but i cant believe him he dosent talk like he used too. he just seems to be missing something. i really dont miss our times out like partys ar anything but i miss the dumb shit like waking up next to him, and fuckin till odd hours of the night, i miss late night talks and smoke breaks washing the car concerts vacations u name it i miss it. i like my new people better than the ones we used to chill with.
i am reading alot lately and am in the process of starting a new badn with luvy.
im fuckin gettin bad ass at this screamin stuff lol
i am very happy with my life but i crave more, more excitement, more everything money power freedom i dont want to depend on anyone are anything, i hate being
fuck it never mind
its a long story and i doubt it makes sence to anyone but whatever.
i just want to know whats it like to be free from the chains? to fuckin run and have noi destination to be known everything like that absolute freedom where u can take comfort in a nice day and miles of road
i like to party i party hard too damn its getin to me its a cheep way to forget things im getin better at it though
i have sortta a thing for a friend right now
nick is just amazing we have been unofficial for like a month or so but hes great he was the lead singer for nymphatic ther eamazing
enough about thaty time will tell the rest
but i just want otbe respected as a person and loved for myself
i am an amazin person i know it
not to be conceded
but i am a good person
i am loyal and honest now and i hope people are willing to give me another chance
when i am willing to give my last breath
new mudc=vayne is awsomw
im tired
i wasnt lying when i told you no words could describe the way i feel bout you
there arent enough or one deep enough to express it and were not even together and i feel this way
i am not sorry for the way things turned out i just wish it could have been different
i dont even remember why
u know what another time
ok
its bein avoided again
who the fuck cares anyway its the past right??
i will try n keep this updated i am terrible when it come to remembering things
forgive me
maybe tommorrow brings good tidings
pray for those with no extremidys
skindred rocks my sox