Again?

[poisonmetal]

I'm doing it again. I don't like to think about the fact that I am now going back down a dark and much traveled road for me. I hate this road, its filled with shadow and doubt but what can i do? no one will bend down from their comfortable perch to save me, and maybe i don't want them to, maybe they can't. i'm tired of this. nothing and no one should have to live like this. failing at life is something familiar,but not welcome. Mondays are dark days and yet i still participate in them, i guess i like let someone other then myself do the hurting, at least it gives the skin a rest, or maybe i'm just lonely. i dont really have anyone anymore. i have school and work but i'm not doing very well with those either. im not going back to the doctor, they'll just tell me that same thing, about how i have to bring my mother in on sessions to hear what i have to say, no way. plus insurance wont pay for it. Monetarily i can't afford to go to a hospital, but i know a few people that would love to see me there. Why do they hate me so much?

"Drip drip drop little april shower you come along with a beautiful song."

Grow up.

I'm not helping anymore.

I'm not you're penile pin cushion.

I'm not a way to make you feel better about yourselves.

FUCK YOU, i hope no one ever rubs your face in your misfortunes.