There are many things I would like to say to you but I dont know how.
Has anyone ever just sat up one night.
No real reason in particular.
Just sat up...thinking.
I did that tonight. If felt good and bad.
Wayne was the prominent thing on my mind, you know there are some people that no matter what you cant shake them out of your subconsious. I read all the old journal enteries....then thought about all the recent times he would call me, like over the summer...He would tell me how much he wants to see me and ect.
But I am so damn bullheaded and diddnt. Now hes away, farr away. We kissed last year around this time. It didnt feel the same.... there wasnt the fireworks that there used to be....so I ignored him until July this year when Gidu died. Then occasionally we would chat.
I am still sticking with the sabatical.....for reasons like this.
I think my mom looks forward to seeing me and my insomniac ass sitting up at 6 am.
Its comforting to see her off for work, and its nice to have a cup of coffee with her....shes probably one of the most interesting people I know. I'm gonna miss her when I leave for Philly in August so I'm gonna make the best of everything and everyone. I dont want to sit back in my apt and think I wish I spent more time with (insert name here).
Wonderwall is a great song.
It was preformed the best accoustically by Ryan Adams....
Dont Give Up On Me is also an amazing song...
Peter Gallagher make this song his bitch. I love it and him.
I also miss agelessinkwell more than life itself.