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[04 Mar 2005|08:07pm]
sooo hrmmm wow when's the last time i wrote in this...yea awhile...updates....
i hate what scott has done to me....i love him to death....but i will never like him....ever....again...
wow i don't want a boyfriend....i don't like anyone....not even logan anymore..but i still care for him alot...a little too much but i am cutting back...trying not to..he's so awesome..but apparently he only wants us to be "FRIENDS"....i feel for him ....about that bitch-faced lacey..I HATE YOU.....it's sooo cool to smoke isn't it?....dumbass...you know how songs influence you to do things at the time....well that happens to me alot...if it wasn't for music....i would never say things i've said to.....hhrmmmm guys...scott..i'm at jamies now my love....and victor is in columbia...we miss him....jamie is crazy about him....jon we miss you...i'm sorry i am a dumbass and burned my foot...so i was acting like a bitch....sorry i didn't see you....i heart jamie...my poo poo head.....hrmmm some things on my mind right now.....jamie,guys,hidden in plain view,crying, wanting to be out with someone*************but i love my jamie and her house....!!!!!i saw the village finally....it was awesome...so SWEET......just how much that guy loved her...how they loved each other and he was soo quiet and watch out for her....ha i wish i love someone like that......someone so sweet like that....well love someone else....sweet like that.....i have never had an emotional conection with anyone of my boyfriends....except scott.....and everyone knows you have to have an emotional conection...like we talked about so many wonders...so many awesome things....so caring and meaningful...i know i'll find that with my next boyfriend...but i haven't yet...that's why i am still single...i'm not saying i couldn't have had an emotional connection with my other ex-boyfriends...i'm just saying i was never close.....never close to them like i was with scott....but then "WE" rushed that relationship and it was history..........
sooo hrmmm wow when's the last time i wrote in this...yea awhile...updates....
i hate what scott has done to me....i love him to death....but i will never like him....ever....again...
wow i don't want a boyfriend....i don't like anyone....not even logan anymore..but i still care for him alot...a little too much but i am cutting back...trying not to..he's so awesome..but apparently he only wants us to be "FRIENDS"....i feel for him ....about that bitch-faced lacey..I HATE YOU.....it's sooo cool to smoke isn't it?....dumbass...you know how songs influence you to do things at the time....well that happens to me alot...if it wasn't for music....i would never say things i've said to.....hhrmmmm guys...scott..i'm at jamies now my love....and victor is in columbia...we miss him....jamie is crazy about him....jon we miss you...i'm sorry i am a dumbass and burned my foot...so i was acting like a bitch....sorry i didn't see you....i heart jamie...my poo poo head.....hrmmm some things on my mind right now.....jamie,guys,hidden in plain view,crying, wanting to be out with someone*************but i love my jamie and her house....!!!!!i saw the village finally....it was awesome...so SWEET......just how much that guy loved her...how they loved each other and he was soo quiet and watch out for her....ha i wish i love someone like that......someone so sweet like that....well love someone else....sweet like that.....i have never had an emotional conection with anyone of my boyfriends....except scott.....and everyone knows you have to have an emotional conection...like we talked about so many wonders...so many awesome things....so caring and meaningful...i know i'll find that with my next boyfriend...but i haven't yet...that's why i am still single...i'm not saying i couldn't have had an emotional connection with my other ex-boyfriends...i'm just saying i was never close.....never close to them like i was with scott....but then "WE" rushed that relationship and it was history..........