i'd like to see you survive on the battlefield you fuck.

[poisonfood4youx]

i slept for from 2am until 8am
then fell back like 15 min later until 4pm
..who sleeps that long?
i use to have a not being able to sleep disorder. hmm
and i always have the wildest dreams anymore,
one of my recent was, going in a basement where there was a swiming pool
full of power rangers and aliens, but it was actual people in halloween
costumes, staring at me. ehh

oh yeah, My Mom is an obsessed physco
i just got in a fight with her about Community service i have to do.
and DATS... she is so fucking annoying.
i dont care if its for my own good, i know how to
do things and take care of myself,
for all the mental abuse she has put me thru,
for not ever being good anough for her, and alwways
haveing to look and do things she wants,
i've snapped, i thought it would end after high school, but it only is worse now... shes put me thru so much shit,
with not being good enough, andher makeing me feel gross..
i've had councilign and anxiety medicine, what 19 year old
is perscribed to xanax.. like wtf,
maybe i jjust need to sit her down and tell her,
i did before and she cryed, i guess its hard to change,
since she only wants the best for me, but i guess some people
just dont realise what they can do to someone..
ahhhhhhhh... fuck this_

i miss someone. i miss..

it's soo gloomy and nice out today, thats the good stuff..

ridiculous.