How retarded Am I?
"away dreaming of him and how it's suppose to be. how he's suppose to be with me and an adopted family. to make love freely and rejoice ourselves over and over again. to be happy together and last forever. is he dreaming the same to? i wonder how he is? omg i miss him! i love him so much! but now he's gone? nope not for me he's still safe inside mybed with me and his arm draped around me. forever he will be there whether in dream or memory. goodnight my sweet love for i will think of you everyday and everynight with every dream thought and breath with me forever devoted to you."
This is how it's been...for years...Ever since I left her. She's Still clinging to me. And she's not the only one. So if that's the case, how am I such a retard? I'm not NEARLY as horrible a person as I have been led to beleive. There's SO MANY PEOPLE that care about me, how could I have beleived for a second that I was? It's not a pity party! It's love. The love of friends, the love of former significant others, the love of family. HAHA. Liberation. Now...I've got a life to move on with. Everything that which was spoken before, I'm taking it all back. Not going to happen again.
This is how it's been...for years...Ever since I left her. She's Still clinging to me. And she's not the only one. So if that's the case, how am I such a retard? I'm not NEARLY as horrible a person as I have been led to beleive. There's SO MANY PEOPLE that care about me, how could I have beleived for a second that I was? It's not a pity party! It's love. The love of friends, the love of former significant others, the love of family. HAHA. Liberation. Now...I've got a life to move on with. Everything that which was spoken before, I'm taking it all back. Not going to happen again.