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on AIM:
Call AndI Follow: sometimes i wish you were still my friend and i didnt waste all of it it back then
who is this? anybody know?
ok. i know who it was now.
things have really really really changed.
weird thing... we never hung out often.
and it's weird that we lived close to eachother for a long time and never knew it until i moved to laredo.
i miss old times. i miss old time winters when i was all excited about visiting corpus and getting to see friends -- and hoping that that really cute and nice and funny boy christopher would hang out too.. wondering if he had a crush on me too. wondering if he was wishing he could get the guts to hold my hand or anything close. this was like 2 years ago.. or more?
i miss you, billy, giving me advice. and telling me that it was a sure thing that mister chris liked me. and how i'd talk to you about all sorts of stuff. and how you thought i was black until you actually met me. and that one time when i felt really awful at melissa's appt. and i went for a walk and i talked to hale about other stuff so i wouldnt have to think and then.. you showed up. i felt like you were my only friend in the world for a moment or so.
and i miss hanging out with leon a lot. and taylor too. and... when mark used to come to laredo to visit and bring chris and sometimes leon.
and also -- mark took me and chris to see the big satan statue.
and when BHC was about to tour.
and spending the night with chelsey all the time and walking around at night and writing.. certain.. blasphemic(word?) things on all of the baby jesuses in nativity sets in chelsey's old neighborhood and being extremely paranoid haha.
Call AndI Follow: sometimes i wish you were still my friend and i didnt waste all of it it back then
who is this? anybody know?
ok. i know who it was now.
things have really really really changed.
weird thing... we never hung out often.
and it's weird that we lived close to eachother for a long time and never knew it until i moved to laredo.
i miss old times. i miss old time winters when i was all excited about visiting corpus and getting to see friends -- and hoping that that really cute and nice and funny boy christopher would hang out too.. wondering if he had a crush on me too. wondering if he was wishing he could get the guts to hold my hand or anything close. this was like 2 years ago.. or more?
i miss you, billy, giving me advice. and telling me that it was a sure thing that mister chris liked me. and how i'd talk to you about all sorts of stuff. and how you thought i was black until you actually met me. and that one time when i felt really awful at melissa's appt. and i went for a walk and i talked to hale about other stuff so i wouldnt have to think and then.. you showed up. i felt like you were my only friend in the world for a moment or so.
and i miss hanging out with leon a lot. and taylor too. and... when mark used to come to laredo to visit and bring chris and sometimes leon.
and also -- mark took me and chris to see the big satan statue.
and when BHC was about to tour.
and spending the night with chelsey all the time and walking around at night and writing.. certain.. blasphemic(word?) things on all of the baby jesuses in nativity sets in chelsey's old neighborhood and being extremely paranoid haha.