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Why is being normal such a hard task for me? I'm starting to think I really am insane. Not that thats a bad thing, don't get me wrong it's one of my most charished attributes. I have a very strong character about myself and I wouldn't have it any other way. But lets face it, it's not exactly as socially acceptable as we would all hope for.
So what puts me in the possitions of looking for Social acception you ask? As most of you know, I'm working on a film set with normal people. NORMAL PEOPLE...well most of them. I feel so out of my element. I put on this mask of normal human behavior, but it's only so long before the facade begins to eat at me and make me doubt myself.
Now I think I've dug myself into a hole. My true personality has been repressed for so long, I'm starting to get edgy and piss people off. Thats not what I want. I don't want to be that person. I confuse them. I confuse myself. I just don't know what to do. And I feel like it should be easy. And that just pisses me off more. What have I become?
Not to mention the fact that I just wrote an entire entry about my own problems. How pathetic do you have to be when the only place you can turn to is your computer?
I miss SOS. I miss my family of crazy people that make me feel right at home. I love you guys so much. We still got one more.
So what puts me in the possitions of looking for Social acception you ask? As most of you know, I'm working on a film set with normal people. NORMAL PEOPLE...well most of them. I feel so out of my element. I put on this mask of normal human behavior, but it's only so long before the facade begins to eat at me and make me doubt myself.
Now I think I've dug myself into a hole. My true personality has been repressed for so long, I'm starting to get edgy and piss people off. Thats not what I want. I don't want to be that person. I confuse them. I confuse myself. I just don't know what to do. And I feel like it should be easy. And that just pisses me off more. What have I become?
Not to mention the fact that I just wrote an entire entry about my own problems. How pathetic do you have to be when the only place you can turn to is your computer?
I miss SOS. I miss my family of crazy people that make me feel right at home. I love you guys so much. We still got one more.