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[poison_is_yummy]

here it is.

i love you very very very much.
i miss you very very very much.

you are my Britt. being around you is incredible. i was looking foward to seeing you so hard. had things planned.

but.....

i know things in my life have changed. i know they haven't exactly been advantageous to you. and last time you were here it was pretty crappy. i hurt your feelings. i felt like the giant piece of shit. i hated myself. i wanted more than anything to make things up to you.

but....

i understand if you don't want to come. you don't really have a reason to. you're afraid of being the third wheel again. of being bored. of getting hurt. and after cody...... i would understand. it would hurt though. cause i miss you so bad. but, i dont want you to feel obligated to me. i don't want you doing something you don't want to.
i want to see you. hear you. laugh with you more than anything. but not at your exspense. so it's up to you. you are madly wanted you here. and i would do everything to make sure you have a good time and that there isn't a repeat of last time.

but, dear if you just really don't want to come. it's up to you.

i love you, B

always