it's gone.everything.my life is in the garbage.

[poisionedbyyou]

my whole life is gone in just a matter of a few seconds. all i want to do is cry. it's upsetting. i don't know what to do. it's not fair. i have to start over new with the new things i have. :[ i want my old stuff back i want my damn life back. now that i've lost all of that it just makes everything with me so much worse. i hate feeling so down like nothing is in place. i'm tired of feeling this way. i just want to be happy. i want to be myself again. i don't want to change i don't know what to do anymore. my life is in the garbage literally. i have nothing anymore. i cried today with my mom. i just want us to get on our feet. i want to make her as happy as i can. she is my best friend. i don't want her to be sad and i don't like her to see me sad. i miss a lot of things, i've lost a lot of things, i feel like i'm losing friends too. sometimes i just wish i could disappear sometimes so i don't have to feel anything or deal with anyone.

i just want to be myself.
i want a life.