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And now, ladies and gentalmen, an update of my life...
My grandmother is on her death bed in New York, my mom is supposed to leave soon to go see her. She should be gone for two weeks. My grandfather goes in for Chemo (??) thearepy tomorrow. He is bound to die soon. I have to give the puppy back, amd I don't know if I will be able to do that so easily. [edit: she died]
I have been thinking a lot about someone and I have been on the verge of crying for the past 3 days, I haven't done it yet, and it is taking everything in me to not cry. The more I think about it, the more I realize how pathetic I am becomeing. If it wasn't good enough then, why should it be now? I guess I can't let go of the things that make me happy.
School is muy interesante, hehe. I am so glad we are back. I get to see people that I wouldnt normally see outside school.
KRISTY.. CALL ME, I WANT TO TALK... I miss you so dearly
the ants are in the sugar
the muscles atrophied
we're on the other side, the screen is us and we're t.v.
spread me open,
sticking to my pointy ribs
are all your infants in abortion cribs
I was born into this
everything turns to shit
the boy that you loved is the man that you fear
pray until your number,
asleep from all your pain,
your apple has been rotting
tomorrow's turned up dead
i have it all and i have no choice but to
i'll make everyone pay and you will see
you can kill yourself now
because you're dead
in my mind
the boy that you loved is the monster you fear
peel off all those eyes and crawl into the dark,
you've poisoned all of your children to camouflage your scars
pray unto the splinters, pray unto your fear
pray your life was just a dream
the cut that never heals
pray now baby, pray your life was just a dream
(I am so tangled in my sins that I cannot escape)
pinch the head off, collapse me like a weed
someone had to go this far
I was born into this
everything turns to shit
the boy that you loved is the man that you fear
peel off all those eyes and crawl into the dark,
you've poisoned all of your children to camouflage your scars
pray unto the splinters, pray unto your fear
pray your life was just a dream
the cut that never heals
pray now baby, pray your life was just a dream
the world in my hands, there's no one left to hear you scream
there's no one left for you