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so i'm finally reading heartbreaking work.. after owning it for 2 years. this is the first time i've felt compelled to keep a book in my hands. i just want to read it over and over. my sister laughs at me because i'm underlining parts in it that i like. i guess that makes me a true nerd.
brandon bought me "you shall know our velocity!" i'm stoked on reading it as soon as i'm done with hwosg.
today when i was at the mall i had a strange sort of elevation. all these thoughts were just streaming through my head. eggers style. they just kept going and i couldn't stop them. i felt like i had some sort of social anxiety problem, which is weird because out of the people i know, i'm the one who loves socializing the most. but i don't know, i kept worrying about running into people that i know. what would i say after all this time? these days it's hard for me to strike up new conversations. i find myself getting upset if tehre is any short moment of silence-- like it's allll my fault if people aren't having a good time. i don't know what to do about this. i think it's a result of william and mary.. for various reasons.
i told this kid tonight that he has to come to my school. "we NEED cool kids like you to come!" then i counteracted with "well, i mean.. there ARE already cool people... but more would be AWESOME!"
i'm such a geek. who am i to say who's cool and not? and side note, i love w&m these days.
ps. hanging out with old friends/acquaintances reminded me of some things. enlightment over break... yeah...
and another ps. i'm throwing away my cell phone. it's too costly to make these risky late night calls. i'm losing my dignity. i feel bad.
brandon bought me "you shall know our velocity!" i'm stoked on reading it as soon as i'm done with hwosg.
today when i was at the mall i had a strange sort of elevation. all these thoughts were just streaming through my head. eggers style. they just kept going and i couldn't stop them. i felt like i had some sort of social anxiety problem, which is weird because out of the people i know, i'm the one who loves socializing the most. but i don't know, i kept worrying about running into people that i know. what would i say after all this time? these days it's hard for me to strike up new conversations. i find myself getting upset if tehre is any short moment of silence-- like it's allll my fault if people aren't having a good time. i don't know what to do about this. i think it's a result of william and mary.. for various reasons.
i told this kid tonight that he has to come to my school. "we NEED cool kids like you to come!" then i counteracted with "well, i mean.. there ARE already cool people... but more would be AWESOME!"
i'm such a geek. who am i to say who's cool and not? and side note, i love w&m these days.
ps. hanging out with old friends/acquaintances reminded me of some things. enlightment over break... yeah...
and another ps. i'm throwing away my cell phone. it's too costly to make these risky late night calls. i'm losing my dignity. i feel bad.