just another wasted day
all I see are shadows anymore
Chris says he thinks I am kind of shady. Maybe I am. I dont want to hurt anyone of decieve people. I just want to be happy. I dont want to step all over people to be happy. I never did, but I dont think if you do that you will ever be happy.
I do love Matt. I just dont think it is right to be with him now. I have gotten a lot of shit from a lot of people for this but I cant explain the way I feel. Everyone is selfish.
darkness prevails
I used to cry a lot and now I hold it all in. I cried today. I cried because of Jed. I cried because of Mandi. I cried because of the things I have done.
I need sleep.
Chris says he thinks I am kind of shady. Maybe I am. I dont want to hurt anyone of decieve people. I just want to be happy. I dont want to step all over people to be happy. I never did, but I dont think if you do that you will ever be happy.
I do love Matt. I just dont think it is right to be with him now. I have gotten a lot of shit from a lot of people for this but I cant explain the way I feel. Everyone is selfish.
darkness prevails
I used to cry a lot and now I hold it all in. I cried today. I cried because of Jed. I cried because of Mandi. I cried because of the things I have done.
I need sleep.