Soooo...
Ok so another night I was kicked out of TJ's.
He needs time alone, I know.
And he hasn't gotten a chance to get to the doctor yet for his Welbutrin
but when he asks me to leave so that he can have time alone I feel so...
hurt.
It's like I'm not wanted.
I want to make him happy but me being there just annoys him.
So the only way to make him happy is to leave.
Which makes me sad.
It has been really hard lately and I haven't felt like this with him before.
I hate feeling useless and unneeded.
I almost feel like I'm not loved.
And I know he doesn't do it on purpose.
I've been depressed before.
I know how it goes.
But damn does it ever hurt.
I wish it was like it used to be when he begged me to spend the night.
When he didn't want me to leave.
Schmeh.
It sends me sad....
I miss my Andreas!!!!!
He needs time alone, I know.
And he hasn't gotten a chance to get to the doctor yet for his Welbutrin
but when he asks me to leave so that he can have time alone I feel so...
hurt.
It's like I'm not wanted.
I want to make him happy but me being there just annoys him.
So the only way to make him happy is to leave.
Which makes me sad.
It has been really hard lately and I haven't felt like this with him before.
I hate feeling useless and unneeded.
I almost feel like I'm not loved.
And I know he doesn't do it on purpose.
I've been depressed before.
I know how it goes.
But damn does it ever hurt.
I wish it was like it used to be when he begged me to spend the night.
When he didn't want me to leave.
Schmeh.
It sends me sad....
I miss my Andreas!!!!!