Leah's Memorial
Well the memorial for Leah went better than I had expected.
About 320 people showed up and most of them I hadn't seen in many years.
It was a blessing and a wonderful testimony of Jesus.
I was truly thankful for everyone who came.
People told me that it was supposed to get better after the memorial.
That there would be closure.
Maybe I am just weird but I still want to cry everytime that I see a picture of her. Especially a picture of her with me.
There was no more closure, it just opened up that gaping hole in my heart and reminded me that she is not here with me and won't be on earth ever again.
It hurts so much.
I can't describe it. The pain tears across every fiber of my being, rips into my soul and leaves me utter agony crying for a release.
The Lord is good about getting her off of my mind when I just can't handle it. And I have been able to keep myself busy with school and work.
But God isn't it supposed to get easier?
When does it stop getting harder?
I miss my Leah, my kiddo, my Leah Bear.
Pray for me. I am getting through it by God's grace and with the prayers and love of family and friends but it is hard.
About 320 people showed up and most of them I hadn't seen in many years.
It was a blessing and a wonderful testimony of Jesus.
I was truly thankful for everyone who came.
People told me that it was supposed to get better after the memorial.
That there would be closure.
Maybe I am just weird but I still want to cry everytime that I see a picture of her. Especially a picture of her with me.
There was no more closure, it just opened up that gaping hole in my heart and reminded me that she is not here with me and won't be on earth ever again.
It hurts so much.
I can't describe it. The pain tears across every fiber of my being, rips into my soul and leaves me utter agony crying for a release.
The Lord is good about getting her off of my mind when I just can't handle it. And I have been able to keep myself busy with school and work.
But God isn't it supposed to get easier?
When does it stop getting harder?
I miss my Leah, my kiddo, my Leah Bear.
Pray for me. I am getting through it by God's grace and with the prayers and love of family and friends but it is hard.