bored so im gonna blab
im in mississippi visiting friends for the next few weeks. its really hot and wet here, so diff from so cal. im sitting at the desk while evanescence's "bring me to life" is on the stereo. i love this cd. it takes my soul and does things to it i could never imagine. ive been thinking a lot about this guy i know. i miss him a lot, and i dont know what to do about it...scratch that. i know what to do about it, im just scared to do it. my friend is yelling at me cuz i keep talking about benji madden. what does she expect? he's the hottest rock star to ever walk the face of the planet....and anyone who disagrees with me can kiss my ass cuz i dont care. its hard for me to find something to care about. theres not much in my life worth thinking about much less caring about. too many people are so fake these days, its hard to find someone that isnt a barbie doll or a pothead. i love music. that is basically what keeps me alive. when im angry or depressed, when my dad gives me shit, i just turn up evanescence or sugarcult or symphony in peril, or some great band like that. i think everyone can be helped in some way or antoher by some kind of music. im so tired. i slept until noon today, and i had to force myself to get out of bed. the more i sleep, the less of the day i have to go through. its better that way. i want to sleep late tomorrow again. im sorry to say how much i hate life. there are 2 people that i think are wroth living for. and the fact that i will go to new york someday, and travel through europe. if anyone has tips about europe let me know. i have a lot of random thoughts and thats what my entries-for the most part-will be. random and hard to follow. thats how i am, and thats how my world is. as if i care. as if anyone cares.