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I'm such an asshole and I've only been realizing it the past few days, or weeks I don't even know.
I feel so empty and so stupid. It really is all my fault that Nick kicked me to the curb. Well, atleast 90%. I didn't think I wanted to be with him anymore and he can't get over the past. What the fuck am I still hung up on him for? You'd think I'd learn by now that its not gonna work out with us, even though I still wish it would. I can't even explain this feeling.... I think about it everyday. And everyday I get upset about it. If only I knew what I wanted before this happened... I wouldn't of acted so cold to him. I wouldn't have been so far away.
I'll regret this for the rest of my life. I miss you...
I feel so empty and so stupid. It really is all my fault that Nick kicked me to the curb. Well, atleast 90%. I didn't think I wanted to be with him anymore and he can't get over the past. What the fuck am I still hung up on him for? You'd think I'd learn by now that its not gonna work out with us, even though I still wish it would. I can't even explain this feeling.... I think about it everyday. And everyday I get upset about it. If only I knew what I wanted before this happened... I wouldn't of acted so cold to him. I wouldn't have been so far away.
I'll regret this for the rest of my life. I miss you...