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I have hit rock bottom and idk what to do with myself. Last night was fucking terrible. Today was fucking terrible. I will never go to Mahoney's again, even though I love that place. Sucks.
Why do I always go after the guys who never know what they fucking want?
I'm so frustrated right now. With life. I feel like driving my car off the Mid-Hudson bridge. I miss Nick so much its killing me. And I know he feels the same too. So it kills me even more that we are both miserable and not together. He can't be with me right now. Maybe in a year or two from now we will get back together. Who the hell knows.
I need to stop.
Why do I always go after the guys who never know what they fucking want?
I'm so frustrated right now. With life. I feel like driving my car off the Mid-Hudson bridge. I miss Nick so much its killing me. And I know he feels the same too. So it kills me even more that we are both miserable and not together. He can't be with me right now. Maybe in a year or two from now we will get back together. Who the hell knows.
I need to stop.