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I've realized that everything I thought I wanted ever since I was little... isn't what I wanted at all. When I was growing up I always dreamed of living in the big city, with an important job, and fancy things. I always wanted to get as far away from home as I could. The more I learn about myself... the more I'm realizing that there are things that I would much rather do. I want to be a wife and a mom.... I want a big house in the country, with a big porch that I can sit on in the morning and watch the sun rise over the pond in the back. Granted I want to have money so that we can take vacations and not be strapped all the time.... but even that would be ok as long as my family was happy. It's funny how much you learn about yourself in such a short time. I got blinded by material things, it got in the way of what I knew deep down I always wanted. I never wanted to be a lawyer... I wanted the money. The fact of the matter is, if I became a lawyer, I wouldn't have time to have a family, and thats what I want most. I want to be able to take care of my husband and my kids, I want to be able to be there for them for whatever they need. Which is why I've decided that I will keep my major, but instead I want to be a high school teacher or a college professor. A teacher is what I've always seen myself being anyhow. As weird as it is for my whole perspective to change, I'm glad I realized it before it was too late.